My Blog On Life

I was very surprised to find that so many people displaying such awesome talents.  I'm sure you have ran into one of them, after all there are a million blogs out there?  There are even several that hold a very similar name to mine "Joyfullexpressions"!  Crocheting colored scarves and hat's,  providing up to date top of the minute fashion trends and my favorite the baker's blog, with all their intricate details that they single handily carve into these elaborate masterpieces.  These blogger's have settled into their niche and they OWN them.

That brings me to my blog.  I absolutely LOVE LIFE! I LOVE LIFE! I know that I said that already but I really love it and I love to write about it.  This is to apologize for my lack of a niche My blog won't be consistent.  It won't settle into "A" niche.  It will be the best blog about life.  I will blog about my ups, my achievements, my promotions and my fantasies.  I'll blog about my loves, my passions and how I have been crushed and abandoned and hurt and miserable all in the same breath.

My BLOG will be about LIFE and how I plan to embrace it, how I feel, what I hate and how stupid of a boss I have. Life will be my niche.  I mean everyone else has already settled into a piece of it and since I still haven't seen all that life has to offer I'll have to invite you along on this journey.

One End Is a New Beginning

Amazingly the year is coming to a fast yet subtle end.  The drama of yesterday has subsided, the worries of today have calmed and although I didn't exactly conquer the world I'm pleased with the events that have unfolded throughout the year.

I tried almost everything that I wanted to.  I failed more than I succeeded.  I embraced my talents and found new ones yet through it all I am genuinely pleased with what has unfolded.  Now I want to take these last few day's, weeks, hours to reflect.  Give inventory on how I WILL improve.  How my next move will be my best move. 

However, like a relationship that must have it's proper closure I will remain loyal and focus to give careful thoughts and attention to the days that remain.  After all the end is only the beginning to our next chapter.
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Finding Your way out of the Storm

You smile, you laugh, you even respond to questions, but where are you.  Behind the mask and the make-up, beyond the status of great a house, awesome job and wonderful kid's where did YOU go?  You keep saying your okay and you have actually begin to believe it, but only long enough to make it through the day or to distract someone close to you into believing the illusion of happiness and contentment that you have created.  Why can't I just believe that I am happy? Because your heart is sending consistent unpleasant reminders in the rhythm of a skipped beat or a racing thump.  Why Can't you believe? Because your stomach is hosting a party for the Botanical Gardens, invitation of 100,000 butterflies to assemble in the lower quadrant of your belly.  Why are you still not believing your okay, after you have convinced yourself for yet another day?  Because your mind runs laps all night as you fight to convince it to give you JUST ONE NIGHT OF REST.  But it can't! It can't stop thinking of the mistakes made that caused this turn, the people lost or the experiences not pursued.  But you can make a decision that your happiness is no longer going to be dictated by your mind, by your physical feelings, your emotional attitude or your social status.  No, today you are going to take control of the thoughts that haunt and keep you bound and imprisoned and you are going to see the clouds dissipate into a bright sun shining future.

How?  How can I train my mind to ignore the very thing that plagues me and frustrates me daily?  How can I ignore the lack or the ignorance that I am daily surrounded by.  I'll tell you how, by simply letting go!  Are you surprised?  Are you upset by my answer?  Did you expect an answer that was somehow rooted into deep meditation and theology?  Maybe you needed a 12 step plan to help you walk daily through the guidelines allowing you to rehearse and re-enact the reason you are in the emotional state that you are in.  I feel you!  My ability to closely relate to the emptiness, the unfulfilled void that longs for purpose and that inability to cope through life's daily bullies qualifies me to be the perfect candidate to tell you to Simply, LET IT GO!!!  I had my own twister in fact I have had to many to number.  But after you scream, like that 2 year old, cry like you just got the whoppin' of your life, kick, swing, fall....And when your through collect yourself, exhale one last time and release it.


Your issues are no surprise to you and they certainly didn't arrive over night, so give yourself a minute to evaluate the cinder block layer's of hurt, and pain that you have allowed to sashay into your life.  Now are you ready? Name that thing one by one, out loud and evict it from your heart.  Remove the debris that has infiltrated the halls of you heart so you can move pass this stage of your life.  I'll do it with you debt you must go I will be prosperous, unforgiveness you can no longer choke the life from me, I forgive now by faith despite the persons apology, depression I decide today that you are no longer needed or wanted I receive Joy and strength and remind myself that my happenings can no longer dictate my happiness! Sigh, breathe embrace yourself look at what you can be when you just take off the mask and make it through the storm.  After all most storms have beautiful rainbow's waiting at the end.  So it isn't about waiting for the storm to pass, it's about finding the strength to make it through the healing process during the storm.

Fear Abort's Dream's...

I won't edit this.  I want my faults to be exposed.  So for my literary critic's who dare to gaze through the text, be advised that this was from my heart, read with caution (smile).

 An unexpected emotion of encouragement seeped out into the text of this page.   I didn't plan for this to come out but nonetheless it came and now it stand as an encouragement.  Understand that while you wait and prolong your destiny to create GREATNESS that the infancy of your dream may immaturely be aborted.  Oh yeah, that taboo word that we use when we don't want something, can't handle something or just don't have the gut's to continue on with that part of something. Aborted because you rationed that it wasn't  good enough, cool enough, or profitable enough to be birthed.  Then from nowhere a twin to your dream was born.  A twin that looked like the shop, the website, the profession or maybe the adventure that you dreamed.  The one that you couldn't let go and yet was to scared to allow to come to fruition because, your knowledge was low and your money was less and you couldn't get the confident support from the inner voice within and so your dream that you dreamed went dormant and then...aborted.  Away it sifted into the cemetery of dreams where thoughts burst, goals are shattered and normalcy is applauded.  There is a vision that is needed and only you can birth that thing.  So birth it because it doesn't matter how many Restaurants appear or Corporations evolve they all will never amount to the dream the vision or the idea that only you can birth.  After all they all seem to be missing the same chemistry.  They lack your passion, your creativity, your professionalism all wrapped into YOUR compassion.  So again forgive me for the mediocrity of text.  I just wanted to encourage you that you CAN do it...BETTER.  So your computer is light years in the dark ages and you can barely type, go to the library or peck away, but make a step.  So you think that someone else will think it's stupid or useless, and they couldn't be more correct! "WHY" because their not your audience they're not your market, they're not the person that would die if you...ABORT.  I would hate for your life to go by without at least an attempted dream tried.  So go get that free EIN#, tell the world and don't back down.  Dare to dream bigger, higher, faster, stupider, but dream.  Let your childhood ideas begin to overflow out of your mind.  Allow them to seep out of your heart and into the lives of people who have been waiting for the passion and key's to life that you have so long been afraid to let go of because of failure.  If you fail, so what.  Join the many success story's that have conquered defeat and lived to share their success.  So I dare you, To go ahead and birth your dream.  And don't be surprised if you are harboring multiple birth's...But whatever you do don't abort!!!!

Cherish Life

Last night I was having a heart to heart.  It was kind of hap hazard out of the blue.  Nothing sparked it, nothing provoked it. I just found myself sharing intellectual ideas of life.  Okay, before I bore you let me explain, I am in no way Confucius, or Gandhi or any other deep spiritual guide that sits and ponders the purposes and reasons of existence and for those who may be wondering, I wasn't high!

No, it was just a breeze of reality that smothered my thoughts and the question came to me, if your were to relocate today or tomorrow who would you keep in contact with and if any drastic affair of life were to occur who would be there for support?  Now I am not thinking of any outro or exit that I plan to extinguish my time, before time, but these were my thoughts.  Has my life effected or contaminated anyone enough to be compelled to continue to nurture my children or to lend a helping hand? 

Whose life did I plague to the point that the idea of my disappearance gives relief, who valued my existence enough to find it not robbery to help and aid or nurture me back to the state they once knew of me.  Names went through my mind and many names I thought surely wouldn't allow my legacy to go die, but how long would that zest for another's life continue?  Now I know I took you somewhere I said I wouldn't but these were the thoughts of my heart.  Friends come and go, family grows through birth's and new engagements and decrease by the hand of death and the question is who after the laughter is over, after the tears are cried, the wounds are healed and the victory won will be by your side and care even after the smoke has settled? 

Cherish life not just because you never know when jail, distance, illness, betrayal, or death may come, but cherish it simply because you desire to celebrate the low valley's and the triumphant mountains of life because after all is said and done you never know.